I’m not a person who thinks that everything happens for a reason, but I do believe very strongly that there’s a lesson we can take from anything that we encounter. Sometimes I need to remind myself of this.
My family and I have been dealing with a very complicated and painful issue for a couple of years now.
I learned yesterday that the milestone event has been postponed, and it’s likely that the revised date will get pushed back as well. I felt crushed. Won’t this ever end?!?!
It’s been so tempting to wish ill on the person that started all of this, but I know that’s not a solution. I’ve had to dig deep to find a lesson from all of this, a reminder that I can’t control the events but I can control my reaction and how much power it has over me.
As I write this, we’re having a warm spell. Even a couple of days ago it felt like the sun was never going to shine again and that all the days would be low and gray; now the sun is sparkling on the snow and telling me that I need to go for a walk and breathe fresh air. I’m reminded that I probably need to do some cleansing work, because my meditation space became my brooding space and I deserve a better environment. And instead of wishing ill on the person who brought this darkness into our family, I’m going to focus on truth, justice, and the strength of keep walking with a burden I thought I could have put down by now.